Social Phobia Diet Day 2

As promised, I will be posting my daily food intake. The goal is to improve my general health which should help my ability to deal with social interaction.
Breakfast: Oatmeal, Fried Egg, Apple(Fuji), cup Skim milk; Lunch: 3oz Sirloin Burger, 2 cups mixed vegetables; Snack: Large Orange; Dinner: Baked Chicken Breast, cup broccoli with 1 teaspoon "yogurt butter"; Snack:; 1 String Cheese.

Thoughts: My calories are a little too low. I think tomorrow I will add a couple servings of food, probably a sweet potato with lunch and brown rice with dinner. I will consider adding portions, such as an extra egg and or 4-5oz of meat instead of 3. Anything I add/adjust will be done gradually.

Social Anxiety Diet

In previous posts and on my website Social Phobia Living, I have described some of my recent health problems. I try to recall times that I felt better, both from a general health and social anxiety standpoint. While my social anxiety disorder has always been severe, it was "easier" during a time when I was very physically active and conscious of my eating habits. It is apparent that desperate times call for drastic measures. I am starting a "diet"- Hopefully a lifestyle change in hopes of helping my social phobia and general health. Today I start at 6' and 216 lbs, with my social anxiety around a "8" on the 10 Scale. My blood pressure and other vitals are pretty much average as far as I know. I think my goals are pretty modest: By summer get my social anxiety around a 5-6 and drop about 30lbs. I am going to record what I eat everyday.
Today I ate:
Breakfast: 1 Egg OM, 1 cup Oats, 1cup milk, 1 large orange; Snack: Large Fuji Apple; Lunch: Turkey Brat on wheat bun, 2 servings baby carrots; Snack:1 Mozz. String Cheese; Dinner: Broiled Salmon, 2 cups chopped broccoli.

Took a Break and Taking More

I am somewhat of an internet and computer addict. As someone with social anxiety, the internet is my connection to the world. It is also the way I feed myself.

Sometimes, you can have too much of a good thing. After my joints started swelling and aching and my left hand left unusuable, I had to take a break. It was hard. I tried to go 3 days without touching my computer. I couldn't even go 1 day, but I did manage to only total a couple hours over the weekend. I would say it was the first time I managed to voluntarily spend less than 8-10 hours per day on the 'net in 3-4 years.

My health sucks. I'm dying.....Well, everyone is/does..some slower than others.

I can't take it anymore! Unless I start taking some vacations- mentally, physically, and financially...I'm going to have a heart attack or something.

My joints ache. I am constantly thirsty. Depressed...Paying more than my "fair share" of things.. Struggling to keep up with eBay, internet marketing,etc ( I hate it, but it's the only way to live... People with severe social phobia ccan't have normal jobs. Even if we want to. Everything in life seems to be about some superficial social bullshit and a game we don't play or buy into).

The thing is I'm going to be spending less time online. Only the time it takes to get stuff done. Otherwise, sitting in the basement on my computer is going to endup killing me!

Kirby Puckett RIP

I grewup on 1980s baseball- Cal Ripken, Don Mattingly, Dave Winfield, Kirby Puckett.

One of the best players during the heyday of my fandom has left this world at the young age of 45. A clutch player who always seemed to play all-out. A guy who led the Twins to 2 World Series victories. I just wanted to acknowlege this great competitor.

Some Spying isn't working; Target your Markets

I read once that Bill Gates receives close to 400 million spam emails a day, most promising to help him "get rich" and "'pay his debt."

Obviously some marketing is not very targeted.

Lately I am getting a lot of invitations to join political mailing lists (email discussion lists). I really don't have any interest in politics anymore, but I will always be a libertarian. From time to time I visit political/philosohpical websites like The Agitator, Hammer of Truth, Liberty for Sale, and Reason Magazine and their Hit 'n Run Blog. Anyone who reads those sites will get an idea of my principled libertarian beliefs.

Lately I have been invited to join "moral conservatives" and another list about election results. The latter had an introduction that said "since I know you are a conservative activist." You know that, huh? Maybe your list dealer is on coke or someone's spying program ( We KNOW you are a "conservative activist"- We've been watching you) has a fatal flaw. I am neither "conservative" nor an "activist."

Granted there may have been a time the "conservative" label fit some issues I believe in. But not anymore. The fact is my beliefs are still the same principled beliefs I have always had. The "conservatives" and liberals are the ones who changed. I have no interest in "conservatism" or "taking back the GOP."

I joined the "moral conservatism" list mostly because it promised not to be a gang of "Bush Kool-Aid." Within moments, it was clear this WAS a Kool Aid dispensery. I had to quit the list because I could not take the ignorance and hatred. To the bunch, "simplemindedness" was a virtue. Anyone who saw a fault in simple thinking was by default a "liberal."

Also these days, the Conservative movement has redefined itself. But, hey at least they do define themselves as something. Even though it has NOTHING to do with traditional conservatism,IMO. To "qualify", one must agree on exactly 2 issues. 1. Outlawing Abortion is the most important issue. 2. Homosexuals are sub-human. There also must be some deluded lock-step thought that this is a "Judeo-Christian" nation and all laws must follow that.

I don't believe in any of those things, so I must be a "liberal"( ooh, scary word version).

The funny thing is, believing in the 1st,4th,5th,6th,9th,and10th ( and even the 2nd when it comes to defending one's home from invaders) Amendments these days is enough to be painted as a liberal. At some point conservatism became synonymous with obsession with gay sex and building a Theocracy akin to a Christian taliban. other popular "conservative ideals" include : expansion of the police state-no knock searches-shooting at unarmed people accused of "crimes" like betting on the Super Bowl, "big government conservatism"' Huh?, bloated entitlements, imprisoning political opponents,etc.

So yeah, I have no problem these days saying I am not a Conservative. Since everyone "knows" I am, I thought I would clear that up. And to any fake "conservatives" who believe that somehow believing in the U.S. Constitution makes one "un-patriotic", ... how do I say this?....Fuck-off.

Cell Phone Deals for Social Anxiety Disorder

I thought this was more a of a personal shopping episode that had nothing to do with Social Phobia, but then I realized this is another example of a service that helps those with social anxiety: Shopping Online.
My Cell phone contract recently expired and I needed a new one. One of the worst places to shop is the company cell phone store (where existing customers usually have to deal with new phones and upgrades). Naturally I decided to look online. With wireless number portability in full effect, it was just easier to signup with a new carrier and transfer ("port") my number. I just decided to go to a Yahoo Search ( I know google owns Blogger, but frankly their search engine results tend to have a lot of spam and pirated content. Step your search game up, Google. Otherwise I will use Yahoo and MSN-because they return more natural results for the searcher.) Anyway, I decided since I am no Longer stuck with Verizon, I would check out that Cingular Rokr with iTunes phone. I searched and found the best deal among the first few pages of results. I ordered and got it set-up within a couple days. Now I will probably sell my old (though still valuable) Verizon phone. Free Cingular Motorola Rokr with iTunes is what I got.

Living with Social Phobia

This will be a blog to complement my social anxiety disorder website. At first I thought it would be redundant. However, I believe it may helpful to have a regular old blog to increase my postng output. This will allow me to write more about my social anxiety disorder and share more unique content.